Being reminded that he is disabled
I think the main problem I am having with deciding whether to hold our son back at school a year or not is that it means accepting there’s something wrong not quite right with him. Funny as we all know he is disabled, he gets disability money and has full-time one-to-one support at school. It is easy to compare him to others with disabilities and think that the term really does not apply to him. He is so behind his peers in so many areas, but yet he’s just our son. Sometimes it’s easy to think that it is me with the “problem” – not giving him enough attention, bad parenting, I do not have the patience. I would rather those things be true and strive to help him as much as I can. But the reality of it is it is him and the fear that he may never develop further is frightening.
Pushing all these fears away and just being positive not thinking that he is disabled really helps with day to day life. So he wets himself and doesn’t sleep at night – lots of children do that at aged 5, he is still young. If he moves up then I could see that as a problem as he may be the only child to do those things. If he stays down then those younger than him may overtake him.
The Fears
I know this is covering old ground but the decision day is getting closer. I had a chat with him and he really wants to move up. On days when I forget that he is disabled he seems so level headed, and that it would just be stupid not to let him move up. Suggesting that he will fail before we even let him try. But should we not upset him and just wait for him to fail, or should we nurture him and prevent him from failing. I know that the education system is more likely to help the school financially after he has failed – but we are lucky that he’s at a good school and they do not want that. He’s had a lot of changes lately and he’s not been himself. I had the back door open earlier and I told him not to go outside. I said that it was too wet. It was fresh air – I didn’t add that. I just said, “Kyle, don’t go outside. It is wet.” He is five years old. He said, “What did you say?” and I repeated it. Then he repeated, “What did you say?” and I repeated it again. This happened another few times before I just kissed and hugged him. Then I went upstairs and cried. He is disabled and just because it is invisible does not mean that he does not need the help. I have to stop thinking in terms of failing him and think in terms of what is best for him. I wish I had the answers.
But after the decision is made I shall continue being positive for him. He has come such a long way. If he stays behind he will be ahead of his peers. Then that will be good for his confidence. If he moves up then it will be because it has been decided that it is best for him and he can cope. Either way I can forget that he is disabled then he can just be Kyle again.
What a difficult decision you face, I hope you manage to work out what is best for Kyle
tough call! There is so much to be said for each side of that debate – but you’re an awesome mum and you’ll come to the right decision – I have every faith in you!
Sending hugs, it is a hard decision to make. There is a lot to take into account isn’t there, friends he will have made etc. The fact that he wants to move up is good and just think he will still be getting the support he is getting now. Will the same staff member move up with him?
You are doing a fab job Hun xx
Hugs to you lovely lady. SUCH a hard decision but ultimately, go with your gut instinct. Us mums are usually right with that. See, I know boys advance slower than girls, so I’d probably not think of it as “holding back” but more being where a boy should naturally be? I guess it’s whichever option you and he TOGETHER are happiest with? xx
Such a hard decision to make and one where there is no right nor wrong answer. Hugs hugs Joy – I hope you manage to make a decision that’s right for you all. x
Gosh, hard decision to make Joy but one I know you will all make wisely. All the best, Mich x
I am sorry you are face with these kind of decisions. I wish all kids where just healthy and happy..i wish there was no sickness of any kind in the world but unfortunately…is not possible and we have to cope. You are doing a great job already and anything you will choose will be the best decision for you child.